It has been in the media for a while, that Fall Out Boy called it quits but I refused to believe it. I was under the impression that they were on and indefinite break.... it occurred to me today while watching their TOP 10 on MTV that that translates to an indefinite break up. First I sat thinking then I hit the web for answers. After that I cried a little. Watching the videos and singing along to the songs I realized that I LOVE them, they are after all pretty much the first Rock band that I ever listened to. Their songs literally make me want to dance and jump around all happy.

But in any case, I decided to make a list of all the songs I loved the most from FOB.

Evening Out with Your Girlfriendd (2003)

1. 1. Calm Before The Storm

Take This To Your Grave (2003)

1. 1. Dead On Arrival.
2. 2. Where Is Your Boy Tonight?/Grand Theft Autumn
3. 3. Tell That Mick He Just Made My List Of Things To Do Today

From Under The Cork Tree (2005)

1. 1. Of All The Gin Joints In The World
2. 2. Sugar We're Going Down
3. 3. Nobody Puts Baby In The Corner
4. 4. 7 Minutes In Heaven
5. 5. A Little Less Sixteen Candles, A Little More Touch Me
6. 6. XO
7. 7. Sophomore Slump Or Comeback Of The Year

Infinity On High (2007)

1. 1. I'm Like A Lawyer With The Way I'm Always Trying To Get You Off (Me and You)
2. 2. Hum Hallelujah
3. 3. Fame<Infamy
4. 4. Take Over, The Break's Over

Folie A Deux (2008)

1. 1. I Don't Care
2. 2. Tiffany Blews
3. 3. The (Shipped) Gold Standard
4. 4. (Coffee's For Closers)
5. 5. America's Suitehearts
6. 6. 20 Dollar Nose Bleed feat. Brendon Urie

Believers Never Die (2009)

3. 1. From Now On We're Enemies
4. 2. Alpha Dog

Well that's that. For one of the bands that shaped, well shaped me... Love forever.

In my life there is me then everyone else, me being on the outside looking into their little circle and them in their circle peering out and laughing. I am not necessarily ostracized but I am not embraced with open arms either. Truthfully that is the way I am most comfortable, keeping them at arms' length, always have but a few have broken through to become closer.

Last term I entered the ranks of the 'BAD' kids when I got caught smoking and made it on the head teacher's hit list. THis term, one of the most popular highschoolers invited me to a house party at his house at the Coast when we are done with the IGs and told me about all the cigarettes I could smoke. I thought he was kidding when he asked first but then he kept asking.

This was strange, me and this guy have bonded once, and that was because we received the same tree stump to uproot last term (He was caught drinking). To this party he has invited fun and outgoing individuals.

Just yesterday my best friend gave me the impression I portray to those around me,

 '...Overly mature for my 16 years, and a little boring...not like a normal fun and crazy teenager...'

What the hell do I do with that comment? Sedate and calm, read BORING works for me. I play it safe so I know I won't lose. I am a loner, and have when keeping friends, kept a small circle of them. That brings us back to the outsider getting in. This invitation could be a number of things, not that I am really sure I could attend but really, here they are:

1. Elaborate and lengthy ploy to get me stranded in the cost by myself.
2. Ploy to get me there, hammered and... other unfavorable states...
3. An actual honest invitation to a house party because my presence is wanted.
4. Plan to see what happens, i.e more smoking or whatever
5. Maybe they are setting me up

Some are outlandish but hey, what would you think when you, (re-read the above quotation) are invited to a a party for the fun and outgoing?

Cruel joke? Should I go?

Hello Xangans,

Been a little while but you will never guess why. I am 16 and am forced to suffer through am enrolled in the British system of Education. This dictates that at this age, in my year, that is 11, I have to sit these exams termed, IGCSES.

The most I can tell you is that the C stands for CERTIFICATE and the I for INTERNATIONAL... oh and the E might as well be for EXAMINATION. These are fondly called IGs over here. So, for my IGs I have to hand in coursework projects in ICT, English Language and French. We get these projects way in advance but we all procrastinate like dumb bitches and hurry at the last minute. I am done with all that thankfully but now, starting MAY 21st, I have my first official IG; Biology.

We are having Art on Monday and Tuesday and have actually had three quarters of the Science papers we are meant to do for the IGs. See with the system I wish was abolished and should start a petition so this wish becomes a reality do, the Science marks are taken from 3 multiple choice papers, 2 structured papers, 2 practical skill papers and a practical skills grade that the teacher awards you out of 14. We have all done at least the 3 multiples and one structured.

This is how I did in Bio and Chem.

• Bio Multiple Choice 1: B
• Bio Multiple Choice 2: A*
• Bio Multiple Choice 3:A*
• Bio Structured 1:A*
• Chem Multiple Choice 1:A*
• Chem Multiple Choice 2:A
• Chem Multiple Choice 3:A
• Chem Structured 1:A

So not that bad.

Besides that I have not got my pone and iPod back. I hate this. Can't she see I get the point and won't let her find out so this doesn't happen again if I do something dumb again do it again? My dad won't get me a fucking laptop and I have to, may have to do IB after I graduate highschool.

Fuck. My. Life.

And ex that I hate is a big douche, just saying.